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sleepless

Sunday, November 27th, 2011 | Just Me

I don’t believe there are many people who read my blog, and those who do probably know I have a very hard time falling asleep, staying asleep, and resting while asleep.  This condition is known as, and I have been diagnosed multiple times by multiple doctors, Insomnia.  Too many people claim insomnia for a short span of maybe a week or 2 that they don’t sleep.  I, however, have had trouble sleeping for 14 years now.

I don’t really want to talk about my condition on here but more abou what I feel like and how it effects me.  After one day of little to no sleep, I feel just like anyone else does.  A little warn out but usually I can make it through the day just fine.  2 nights however I start to feel really weak.  I find myself getting distracted and lost very quickly.  Migraines are very common from here on out.  3 nights and I get frustrated very easily.  I find I can’t remember what I was trying to do or where I was walking towards.  on days like these I find simple tasks refreshing because I don’t have to think about them as much.  as soon as a difficult task gets put in my way I become irritable and confused.  4 days and I can barely carry on a conversation.  I’m usually ok if I just sit down.  5 days and I’m close to useless.  I find myself having a hard time distinguishing between reality and my own thoughts.  I find I focus on negative things, anything from a hurtful word to a full on fight.  6 days, I shouldn’t be driving anymore.  my eyes don’t focus on anything at this point.  it’s like someone is riding the focus ring on a camera going in and out and in and out.  reading and tv watching are basically pointless.  7 days, I have no apatite at this point.  I feel completely sick.  I threw up, a lot.  I have no balance.  I was working at a grocery store at the time and had to call in sick.  8 days, if feels like my body has decided that death is the best option.  nothing seems to work right.  I could drink a gallon of water and still feel dehydrated.  I sweat uncontrollably but feel cold.  I probably had a fever, but I hadn’t fully unbacked my luggage for that area of my mission and didn’t know where my thermometer was.  9 days, I actually started feeling better.  Incredibly weak but my body finally accepted food again.  I had to rest (sit down) constantly throughout the day, and I had to use the bathroom multiple times as well.

fortunately 9 days is my max.  I was given a  prescription for pills that day and I slept about 20 hours.

I hate taking pills to sleep.  most of the time I don’t feel rested at all.  I feel like I was unconscious the whole time and never once rested.

I still have problems sleeping.  fortunitly not as bad as it once was, I might make it to day 3 with no sleep, but usually I get 2-4 hours of sleep a night, which catches up to you quickly.

I love actually sleeping, when it happens.  Dreams I find so relaxing, even nightmares I enjoy because I entered the 4th stage of sleep, REM sleep, the only time when you are actually resting not just unconscious.  now that winter is upon us, I find I sleep a little better.  cold weather seems to help with that.  maybe I’ll turn my wife’s and my bedroom into a giant refrigerator.  if we get hungry at night we could just eat cold left overs.  Or maybe one day she’ll let me convince her we need to move to alaska or northern canada!

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